HOME

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HOME.

Darkness and light couldn't be more different,
But I found it hard to differentiate, 
Because I was in the shadows of light, 
Not quite in darkness.
A slave to both realms. 



All my life I thought I had a home in His kingdom.
A daughter of Zion.
Oh, how painful it was to realize, 
I was the lukewarm fluid He planned to spew out of His mouth.

It all started when I thought I could be His child, 
Without actually believing in Him.
Because "He loves me right? Right?"

I pulled away,
Drowning in the delusions isolation brought me.
Church wasn't a priority and friends were naught. 

"I'm okay" I told myself.
"God is right here with me at home"
A baseless assurance.

This went on for years.
I drifted aimlessly.
No root.
No home.
Always feeling half empty.

All my life I thought I had a home in His kingdom.
A daughter of Zion.
How painful it was to realize I was among the goats he plans to separate from the sheep. 

I'm eternally grateful for the moment He arrested me.
And instantly translated me into His marvelous light.
He took my burden, made me free. 
And gave me His yoke, a willing fight.

And now, my waking breath is for Him.
My every thought is His will,
Because all my life I thought I had a home in His kingdom.
But now I know for sure I am a daughter of Zion. 
And He is my Home. 



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